I missed you last week! My father has been in the hospital for the past month, fighting for his life. I’ve been camping out on the floor of his room because Spirit guided me to not leave him alone at night. I surrendered my life to divine years back and… ever since then, I do what I’m guided to do. I kinda have to ha ha ha!! I always tell people, “divine owns me”.
Needless to say, I’m not making videos right now and my newsletters may slow down a bit, but I felt guided to share one of my personal journal entries with you this week. The message here is not about suffering. It is about seeing the beauty in life, even when we hit rough patches:
Dear Spirit of Kindness, thank you. Thank you for showing up after the minor melt-down I had at the hospital today, coming off a hard night of virtually no sleep, due to beeping machines flashing scary-looking statistics on my dad’s vitals. Thank you for showing up through the Nurses this morning, when I broke down in tears. The nursing and staff huddled me, supported me, hugged me, cried with me, spent over an hour with me, explaining these statistics, in depth, how and why these things happen and that it’s not always as scary as it may seem. Wow.
Thank you for showing up through my mom, who sent me some financial support (which was timely & helpful cuz, unbeknownst to her, my credit card was hacked and I have no access to it for, like, a week – and that’s how I buy food – but you already know that, Spirit)… and who is my guide through this process and is selflessly there for me, during all hours of the night to coach me through the scary moments. Mom, what would I do without you?
Thank you, Spirit of Kindness, for showing up through my brother, who selflessly comes up here daily to encourage and advocate for my dad and give me a break, even though he gets up at the butt-crack of dawn to work a long, hard shift before coming here.
Thank you for showing up through my step mother, whom I’m sure is exhausted, but comes each day to encourage and advocate for my father.
Thank you for showing up through my niece, who took over so we could all get some rest.
Thank you for showing up through my cousin and her husband, who gave me a place to clean up and a warm, safe, comfy bed to sleep in for a few hours to recuperate and re-gather my strength. And thank you, for the warm meal and fresh clean laundry I woke up to, and the bowl of fruit for my trip back to the hospital again.
And, dear Spirit of Kindness… my God in Action… thank you, for giving me the up-close parking spot I asked you for… and for the beautiful ways in which you show me you are with me. Never in my life have I walked up to an elevator station to find an empty elevator waiting, door wide open, heading in the direction I need it to go… but for the past three days, you’ve been waiting for me, just like this. I know it is You.
Each time I come in to the building, I walk to the elevator station, and there You are… holding the elevator door open for me, as if to say, “Here for you”. Not a human body in sight, just an empty elevator with the door open, heading up… and the feeling of comfort and protection as I enter your Arms to go for another ‘ride’. Thank you.
And, dear Spirit of Kindness; my beautiful divine; thank you, for showing up last night through the nurse who laid her hand on my shoulder. I felt You come through her hand and fill up my body. You are everywhere. You live in us all. And I love you… with all that I am, all that I have been, and all that I ever will be.
Life is not always a breeze, right? But even in the moments where it seems rough, if we call on divine and remain open to the Messages, it is possible to find comfort and peace. We all have so much to be grateful for… even when you feel like you’re down and out… look for the silver lining. And if you can’t find it, then ask God or the Universe or your Higher Power to show it to you. Then remain open for the answer. It will surely come.
I hope this serves you in some way. If it has, I would love to hear about it in the comments.
Much love and many blessings to you!
Jodi Ana <3 <3 <3 _/|\_